RazorBlade Romance.

ill sit here on my bed just thinking about what happen to make me pull out my old friend his name is Mr razor blade he brings me much joy when i am sad just one cut and its like I'm in heaven once i start its hard to stop if its so wrong why does it feel so right why am i drawn to him every night to make my pain go away as i start to cut i just cant help but think what if i go to deep what if i cant stop the blood from coming out of my arm i don't know if it such a good idea but i just can help myself as i do one more cute i now know its a bad idea that's it I'm gone every thing goes black i hear my mum crying what i have i done to late now I'm gone

Cuts For A Life

From start to finish I wonder why
The cuts look good in this messed up lie
The blood that trickles down my arm
People all stare at the boy who self-harms..

"The emo" they call me
I turn to my name
They act out slicing their wrists
I hang my head in shame
I can't help my feelings
Of being alone
I hide myself for the day
Just longing to go home
I sprawl on my bed
With my razor in hand
And take myself away
To a much better land
I stare in the mirror
And let myself cry
Looking forward to the day
That I finally die

God&The Devil

I've been tainted and shamed
Behind my pretty facade
Impured by lust and passion
Corrupted by silly illusions
My soul more broken than my heart.

No saint can save me now
I'm a sinner with no savior
So I ask God to just take me now
I want to feel numb forever
Numb, cold, and dead.

I didn't know innocence can a be a sin
Accessory to evil plots
I fell against his will
Leaving me hopelessly scared, 
Trapped and good as dead.

No one knows I've got a secret
A secret I couldn't trust someone to keep
No one knows what I went through
The pain and misery I still feel
No one knows except me, God, and the devil too.

Pain Pain Go Away.

Pain pain go away!
Please do not come back another day.
Tears falling down my face
oh how I wish for her warm embrace.
Wonder if she cares about me.
Wonder if this is suppose to be.
How can she stand there and break my heart
How did we allow us to grow so far apart?
My dreams of us being happy is not going to come true
all I am feeling is down and blue.
Pain pain go away 
bring me back to another day
where she loved me and
we thought we were meant to be. 
I will not stop loving you that much is true
but I will be stronger in time 
and not feel so blue.
you will always be in my heart
even when we are apart.
One day I will have that warm embrace
and tears will stop flowing down my face.
Pain pain go away
leave me alone and do not stay.

For Ema;

Dear Ema;


I'm sorry for the things I did, I never wanted to hurt you, i actually loved you, all those nights we spent together, waking up on the phone and then we'd talk all day, i miss the way we used to talk sweet back and forth all the i love you fights made my night, i miss how you'd beg for me to stay with you through the night until the sunlight broke then we'd pass out. I miss how we used to sit on the phone and watch the same movies together, or how we used to make fun of the losers on parental control, i miss being able to have your picture on my wall, someone asking who it is, and me being able to say that's my girl, you made my summer amazing, your the soundtrack of my summer, i'll never love another, you'll always be my thunder, your eyes are the brightest of all the colors, fuck, basically what I'm trying to say is that I'd die for you, I love you Ema, forever, you'll always be my Emmy Wemmy and I'll always be your Dalty Pooh. I just wish I could go back in time and make everything right, i'd do anything, anything.
I love you Ema.
I love you.


I never dreamt it'd be this way
I've lost any chance for me to say
To say that I miss you, say that I love you
Will someone please tell me I'm okay

I wasn't prepared for what's to come
A life made of memories gone so young
And now I'm regretting all I've done
But in your heart know that I'm with you all along

Wherever you go, I will be waiting
Whenever you call, I will be there
Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright
I'm in your heart tonight

I never thought that this could go
And take me away from all I know
And leave me to think I'm on my own
But your love will take me, you were the one...

...Who sat through nights
You held me tight
And made sure I'm okay
And I thank you for the love you gave to me

Wherever you go, I will be waiting
Whenever you call, I will be there
Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright
I'm in your heart tonight...

Tonight...

Wherever you go, I will be waiting
Whenever you call, I will be there
Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright
Wherever you go, I will be waiting
Whenever you call, I will be there
Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright
And if I should fall, I know you're waiting
And if I should call, I know you're there
If ever you cry just know
I'm in your heart tonight...
I'm in your heart tonight








Today is a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go
Whoa
Today in the blink of an eye I'm holding on to something and I do not know why
I tried

I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation
For what I'm feeling inside
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Today is a winding road
Tell me where to start and tell me something I don't know
Whoa
Today I'm on my own
I can't move a muscle and I can't pick up the phone
I don't know

And now I'm itching for the tall grass
And longing for the breeze
I need to step outside
Just to see if I can breathe
I gotta find a way out
Maybe theres a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain

Yeah I'm walking on a tightrope
I'm wrapped up in vines
I think we'll make it out
But you just gotta give me time
Strike me down with lightning
Let me feel you in my veins
I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain

Today is a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go
Whoa

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder

And I said
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
Oh baby bring on the pain
And listen to the thunder.


Ema, Just give me one last chance, and i'll give you everything you ever wanted, I love you baby, even if you don't I always will

Remember that day, you said you were home
but I saw you at that party and you weren't alone
he held you close, he kissed your neck
I was your boyfriend what the heck?
I wanted to punch you, slap you on the head
at that very moment I wished you were dead
I went home and I cried and cried
I tried to understand why you had lied

but the truth is I did nothing wrong
I was the best I could be all along
if you want to cheat on someone, 
then I'm happy to see you go
because I know I'm better than that little ho
and one day soon, 
your going to be to blind to see
he's going to do to you what you did to me

and I'll ask... was he worth it?




This poems kinda tweaked so you can't tell who the person really is but this is about a couple of my past ex's.

An Unheard Voice.

This Poem is about how my child's life was taken away , and how fucked up this shit is.

Nine months are slowly getting close,
I am surrounded by the blanket of yours;
Slowly I am growing in your womb,
Please don’t send me to the tomb;
Oh mother, can’t you hear my voice?
Don’t you have another choice?

Aren’t you happy? You can see me soon,
I am excited to see the world of sun and moon;
In your womb, I am counting days,
To show you mother, my little gaze;
Oh mother, can’t you hear my voice?
Don’t you have another choice?

Mother, I am excited for my first toy,
I promise I will become your joy;
Please don’t feel me as a burden,
Whatever you decide cannot be undone;
Oh mother, can’t you hear my voice?
Don’t you have another choice?

I know you are waiting to see me play,
More than you I am excited to see that day;
Oh mother, won’t you start my life story,
Please don’t make my life a history;
Oh mother, can’t you hear my voice?
Don’t you have another choice?

I am excited to play in your lap,
With my deeds, I will make you clap;
Oh mother, give me a chance to live,
Even if you don’t, I will forgive;
Oh mother, my life is now a question,
Please don’t give it name of abortion.